Showing posts with label University Life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label University Life. Show all posts

Monday, January 28, 2013

早应知道 • 什么都是自己的



在辩论组一个学长的部落格上,发现了以下这篇东西,只修改了一些错漏而已。。.__.

”人生这条路,不是只有一个方向罢了。
每一刻,我们都面对着交叉点。
小到在下一刻应该读书还是玩,大到要修读什么科系、选择什么工作。
今天你的人生是这个样子,都是由于过去无数个交叉的选择所决定的。
但是,我们仔细想想,在交叉点选择向左,还是向右,我们是怎么决定的?
是根据我们父母、老师告诉我们怎样就怎样吗?可是我们怎么知道他们说的就一定对?
是根据我们的直觉,相信我们的运气随便选吗?可是我们怎么知道这个直觉是错的?这个直觉可能只是一种我们合理化自己的理由。
其实,我们都不知道。我们只是知道,这条路,我们一定要继续往前走。走向哪里,我们根本就不在乎。
做为人,我们让环境控制了我们该怎么走,让环境掌握了我们的命运。
我们以为,面对环境,我们真的是无能为力。
可是别忘了,今天环境能够控制我们的命运,是因为我们让它控制,我们把选择的权力放在环境的手上。
我们说环境控制自己,只是不想负起那个责任,只是让自己的心好过一点。
可是,人生是我们的,我们现在心好过一点,自己的人生还是要自己去面对。
不管环境再痛苦,再黑暗,会沉沦,是因为,我们选择了沉沦。
我们在一个所有人都不在乎学习的地方放弃学习,这是自己的选择。
我们在小时候是暴力家庭的受害者,到最后变成加害者,这是自己的选择。
犹太心理学家维克多弗兰克就曾经说过:“在刺激与反应之间,存在着选择的自由。”
最后的掌控权,在我们的手里,人生的方向,由我们自己决定。
当然,我没有那么理想,我不会像《秘密》那本书那样说:你真的很想要什么,就一定会得到。
能不能得到,到最后,还是要看自然定律。
一个农夫到最后有没有收成,看的不只是他是不是很想收成,而且最重要的是看他有没有好好的播种、耕耘。
你想得到的东西到最后有没有得到,看的不只是你几想,而且最重要你有没有付出应有的代价。
我想要说的只是,虽然成败不是由你决定,但是至少,你在哪里跌倒,完完全全,是你自己决定的。
当你不断提醒自己,掌控权在自己,对于每一个当下,每一个交叉点,你会用更理智的方式去思考。
你的人生,才会有走向更美好的可能。
你要了解,你是一个人,你不是不懂得思考的动物。
你可以选择,出淤泥而不染。“

上了大学后,我真的变了很多。
我不再像以前那样,每天都是最早到达课室的几个。上了大学后,我几乎每天都迟到。
我不再像以前那样,每次考试都是最高分的几个。上了大学后,我几乎每次都考不好。
这个学期的成绩更是不堪入目。。T____T
上次政荣曾经问我,我会不会觉得对不起自己?
其实,我不只对不起自己,我还对不起很多人对我的信任。

看了大祥写的那篇 “你的人生 你负所有责任” ,我知道应该怎么做了。
我不可以再继续那样,我不想选择后悔、不想选择辜负。
其实,成绩好和辩论好是没有冲突的。
冲突的是自己的没有尽全力和种种借口、矛盾的是自己的是 “我很想很想,可是我没有真正努力和付出。”
曾经因为多次的挫败、失去对辩论的热诚,而想要放弃?其实,你没有真正努力过。在发现别人背后所奋斗过的一切后,你会知道。
曾经觉得自己离全辩的舞台越来越远,现在 ”我就是要踏上去。“
曾经怀疑我是不是有病,为什么整天睡觉?其实我可以不睡的,只要意志坚定、有心上课。
曾经以为考试不好,是因为没有时间读书、是因为整天睡觉的毛病。其实不是,是因为没有真心去努力过。
不要再为自己找借口了,不要再要求别人帮你做决定。
人生,是你自己的。
不想错过、不想后悔?
自己把握、自己努力!
大家加油!=]

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Not Going To Ask Why Anymore

After coming back from corporate visit to CPA Australia and PwC on Tuesday, i had my dinner with my friends at a noodle stall outside the economic rice shop of new flat.
Rushing to attend TITAS class, i ate very fast even though i actually felt that the noodle not being cooked till soft enough and hard to eat for me with poor digestive system..
After eating it, i really felt very uncomfortable, vomiting and having diarrheoa for the whole night until the next morning..
Planning to go Pusat Kesihatan Universiti, but i had no energy to walk there anymore.
Huey Shi tried hard to seek help from felo in order to find out a car or a motorcycle to send me there, but in vain.
 8 o'clock is a time which all people are more likely attending their first class, thus it's really hard to find out someone free and available to send us to PKU.
Luckily, we had contacted Kae Sen before, he and Ming Ren finally found out a car and sent us to PKU after that.
After sending us there, both of them went back to return the car to the senior who was having class at 9 o'clock first.
After having checked by doctor, he said my vomiting and diarrheoa were due to my poor digestive system and food poisoning just like what i assumed before. Our PKU is really efficient enough, all the procedure just completed within 30 minutes.
After taking medicine, we just called Kae Sen, he asked us to wait them to find out the transport and bring us going back to college.
After waiting for a while, i and Huey Shi thought that it's really difficult to find out the transport within the short time, so we were planning to walk back already.
Suddenly, two guys riding motorcycles appeared, they were indeed looking like those heroes in the dramas, both of us were really surprised with that..haha..XD 

At the afternoon, there was actually a talk by Tun Dr. Mahathir to attend and the summary of this talk has been made to be an individual assignment of Microeconomics, so i would like to attend it.
After going out, seeing my pale face and thinking of the damn cold condition in Dewan Besar which is very not suitable for me who were having fever at that time to get into, they all advised me to go back and have a good rest for recovering soon, so i just followed what they urged and went back.

Fortunately, there was no class to attend for the entire yesterday, then only i could have a good rest for whole day. Today, i am feeling better, grateful.

As for these 2 days, i did much sense the warmness from my friends, especially Huey Shi and Kae Sen.
As a patient, i was tired, but i know that Huey Shi was even more tired than me.
I woke up for lots of time to vomit during that night, she followed and looked after me for the lots of time also.
Accompanying me to PKU, carrying all the things for me, planning to walk back to college alone if there was just 1 vehicle, always touching my head when i was sleeping to see if i still got the fever, reminding to eat medicine all the time...
All the people here have been recognising i and Huey Shi as 366 Legend due to some stories. They all feel that we are very close and looking alike. Normally, when those seniors asked about why would us getting too close, we used to answer that we are roommate, but actually the answer is not that simple la..=) Frankly, we don't really know the answer and don't know how to explain it as well..X) 

When going matric, the god awarded me my 3 Lines Buddies.
Coming here, the god awarded me another group of good friends.
'Lao Tian Ye' really treats me not bad!
Everything is destined, i have faith in that.
To meet my 3 Lines Buddies, I was distributed to study in KMPk instead of the other 14 matriculation colleges.
To meet this group of new friends, i was distributed to spend my 4 years university life in UPM instead of UM as i wished before.

They are a bit distinctive from my last time friends, more active, accompanying me to join many activities regardless college activities, cultural activities, competitions, sports or academic activities.

I am not joinig 'She Fu' or AIESEC already.
After coming back back from the Mid-semester break, i decided to join 'Bo Bian' which is Mandarin Debate Club of UPM. I have attended its Debate Camp 2011 held at Port Dickson during the weekend of Haji. It's interesting and thrilling..
Finally, i got the chance to fulfill my dream which was not able to get realised when i was in secondary school, i am doing what i want now, exciting.
During the camp, i carried out my first debate competition, much gaining great applause and good comments from the audience and panels. It improved my confidence towards the decision to be a debater, i am really happy with it. In the coming December, i may be going through an internal competition with Singapore Nan Yang University as one of the first year representatives of UPM, wishing me luck bah..=)

One more thing, i feel that 3 Lines seems getting far and far from day to day le..
As of now, Cindy is the only one of 3 lines knew about my getting food poisoning, even Lip Teng also didn't know about that..Haha, i also dont know why it would be..
From someone, I knew that even those guys in UM also can't be that close as last time in matric anymore, some people may have changed, something happened, there should be somebody being irritated, couldn't be avoided, but i can't figure it out..
Until now, i never forget about 3 Lines, i don't ever wish to make it as Past Tense in my life and i wish that there will not be any of them doing that afterwards. Don't let me down..
3 Lines, i hope u all can be Present Tense as well as Future Tense in my life, indeed!
Tomorrow, i am outing again, going to watch 《那些年,我们一起追过的女孩》, but it's still not with u all, haiz...-.-
Suan le bah..slow slow come, long wait will have..Xd

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Gonna Move On

I am staying in 6th College.
It has been recognised as one of the BUSY colleges in UPM,
having various kinds of activity coming non-stop all the time.
However, it was sometimes quite enjoyable for me to join those thrilling activities with my new friends here, not bad! =)

K6 Idol, a talent-based competition to be compulsory participated by all juniors staying in K6 but those have involved in MTP performance before..
I was randomly placed in 'Dikir Barat' group..
Previously, i found it boring and had no any ideas about how it is..
Actually, all of them in that group but those Kelateh also don't know, not only me la...
Hence, we just decided to make it in our own way, but not losing its original style as well...
After having the one week practice, it came to the day to be kicked off...~
Last Saturday, we did our performance of  'Modern-orientated Dikir Barat' in Dewan Sri Pulasan in front of all K6 residents..
It was very successful, much earning the great feedback and applause from the audiences attending, haha! ^^

Last week onwards, we have been to participate in many activities organised by different bodies..
Economics and Management Faculty Day by FEMSA,
Seminar On Career Opportunity For Accounting Graduates by UPAC,
Pesta Tanglung by 12nd College,
Chinese Culture Night by Zhong Hua,
Faculty Orientation Day will be on this Friday,
Fiesta Kebudayaan will be on this Saturday and Sunday,
I and other 3 of my friends are involving in the closing ceremony performance of Chinese Traditional Dance at Sunday night,
having practice every night once there is no other activity to be attended.
As i still can't master it well, so i am having butterfly in stomach liao..!!!
Hopefully our performance can end up with a success la...XP

During these few days, all people are wondering about what clubs or societies being better to be joined, not excluding me..haha..=D
My picks in consideration were Social Service,AIESEC, Modern Dance Class and Yoga Class under Zhong Hua.
For not making my schedule too packed, i think i just can pick two of them.
Due to some minor problems, it has come to its conclusion.
I am picking only Social Service and AIESEC.
Joining these two bodies, i hope to expose myself to something new and beneficial to my future career, gaining some valuable experiences in order to broaden my horizon.
AIESEC is a global and English-based association.
I am intending to take it as a learning platform, improving my English language proficiency as well.

Time is precious and unreturnable!
I tend not to let my 4 years university life left blank only...~
I gotta take time in doing something meaningful..XD
I gonna move on..=)

I have never gone outing yet, I want to go outing! A bit curious of the world outside UPM...

~ About Add and Tian Ji >.<''' ~
We are still keeping in touch,
playing a game called 'Free VS Busy' recently..funny dao..Haix! X)

Honestly, there is a first meeting for Modern Dance Class tonight.
I am not attending as i have decided not to join it,
then only i can be here..^^
But yet, just received the message read 'Later 9pm practise dancing...' ~
Since the day i came here, i still haven't found out one night staying in room..^.^
Mummy..Baba..~






Tuesday, September 13, 2011

New Chapter, University

I've come here for one week.
Orientation just ended,
but there is still 1 week college orientation to go through..Haiz..~

The room here is quite spacious and satisfying,
just that i am quite not satisfied with the toilet and washing facilities here.
Our orientation was not as tough as what i expected before,
just like the common one, woke up early and slept late everyday...
Frankly, our seniors here are all quite considerate and caring.
That's what we were grateful with..^_^

I'm now getting along with some new friends here everyday.
They seems not bad, but not really nice as well...
I still can't know them well..
Some of them are fake, i feel...
Moreover, WW always likes to scold me loudly, i don't like..
I have never known that she would be how she is now..
Sometimes i scared to talk with her..

I am studying in the same university with Lipstick.
In fact, we have seldom met with each other..
It just seems like i came here alone and we are living in two different world.

I do survive here, i do get new friends,
but i am not really happy actually.
I miss my family, I miss Penang,
I miss all of my true and sincere enough 'FRIENDS' very much..

I have always felt like want to cry since that day i came here,
I resisted, but the tears will eventually drop down anyhow when there was no one around..
However, it would get better after chatting with my family, Add or Tian Ji.
At the time being, Add and Tian Ji are the only two friends who would worry for me..
Homesicked, how great it would be if my father, mother, sister, brother and baby are with me now.
As Tian Ji said, family is very great!

I don't like NOW, i wish to go back PAST.
It is impossible for me to do so, i know..
I gotta be independent, i gotta grow up ~
Where are u all? =(